Last week was quite challenging to say the least. Parenting two young kids, by yourself, full time is a very thankless job. Mark was busy with an exercise on base, so his schedule was 5pm-5am and then 3pm – 3am and then 1pm – 1am – in other words, completely opposite of ours. It’s almost easier to just have him completely gone. It was really hard when I was downstairs struggling with both kids and he was upstairs sleeping.
Abbie has been SUPER needy lately. She hasn’t been very good at entertaining herself lately and she asks me to play with her at least 25 times a day, usually when I’m trying to feed Ben, or pump, or fix dinner, or clean up the house. I feel guilty having to tell her no all the time. She must ask me 18000 questions a day and after the first 100, my patience with her wears thin, and I feel guilty about that too. It’s always, “Can I have juice?”, “Can I have a snack?”, “Can I go outside?”, “Can I watch a show?”. She runs through those questions non-stop and she’ll ask them, without exaggeration, 15 times in a row. And when I say no, she asks “Why?” another 10 times. It’s extremely annoying and exhausting. By the end of the day, I am usually at the end of my rope with her, and I feel bad for not having an endless amount of patience with her because I know she is still little. But with me still being pretty sleep deprived due to Ben and still trying to figure out how to parent two kids by myself and trying to keep up with Ben’s demands also, it’s just hard.
Anyway, enough of my complaining. I just wish sometimes that we lived a lot closer to family so we could have the help. Mark and I are both really looking forward to going back to the States for two months to get away from the pace of things at the base here in Italy. Less than a month and we’ll be on American soil!!