Thursday, April 1, 2010

4th night in a row

So it is currently 3:30am on Friday morning, and the FOURTH night in a row that Abbie's been up at this time.  I just absolutely cannot deal with this any more.  We are both exhausted.  We've gotten less than 5 hours of sleep a night since we got here and it's usually closer to 3 hrs per night.  Mark hasn't been feeling good lately, and it's most likely due to lack of sleep.  We're supposed to be leaving to go on an 8.5 hr tour in 4 hrs.

She has currently been SCREAMING, not crying, screaming, for a good 45 mins.  She's woken up 2-3 times between 10pm and 2:45am and let out a few little cries, but went back to sleep.  Except this last time.  Now she's just sitting up in bed screaming.  I know if I went and got her she'd want to play for the next few hours and then go back to sleep around 7am until probably 11am, but that's not going to work since we're leaving on that tour before 8am. 

I don't know how to get her to not wake up at this time every night.  She had been taking 3-4 hour naps before yesterday, but yesterday I didn't let her take naps longer than 2.5 hours and today she probably won't take a morning nap at all because she doesn't sleep when we're out and about.  Mark and I are both getting really angry at her for not sleeping, which doesn't help the situation at all, but she is so unbelievably frustrating at 2:30am.  If I could go nurse her to sleep that would be one thing, but if I go get her right now, she's going to want to play for 2-3 hours before she goes back to bed and that's just not going to work.

We're exhausted and frustrated and I just don't know what to do, besides sit up in the middle of the freakin night and write a blog to vent.  Mark is next to me with his iPod on trying to sleep.  I'm watching her in the monitor and she's standing up in her crib, holding on to a stuffed animal, screaming.  And it's that God-awful blood curtling scream.  She's trying to throw her stuffed animal out of the crib.  I've been up for an hour listening to her scream and she's not showing any signs of letting up, but I'm so pissed right now and exhausted, I'm not going to get her.  This really, really sucks.  And there is no way in hell I'm coming home while Mark is deployed because that means that I'd have to deal with this by myself when I came back since he'd be gone, and I couldn't do that.  It scares me that she's making me so mad, but she is and I guess it's the result of the stress of being in a new country, and not getting nearly enough sleep for 6 days in a row if you count the nights in the hotel in LA, the plane ride and every night since we've been here.  If any of you have any suggestions as to how to get her to sleep, I'm all ears.  This completely sucks.


Anonymous said...

I know i don't have kids, so what do i know, but i completely understand and sympathize with your frustration! I don't know if a 10 month old has the capacity to understand that you are mad and it's simply not acceptable to be awake right now, but i think u are doing the right thing by not going to get her at the moment. I wish you so much luck (and sleep!) -Rachel

Anonymous said...

Monica, I am sorry that you have to go through this. Lack of sleep sucks. I think Abbie's little world has been turned upside down. She lost 7 hours, she is in a strange room, not her bed or her stuff, she just doesn't understand whtat is going on. It will take a little while before she gets her little body adjusted to the new time change. I know when we change the clocks for 1 hour it took me 2 days to get adjusted, and not feel so tired during the day.
The only thing I can suggest is to sleep when Abbie does so that when she is up maybe you won't be so exhausted. I will pray that you guys get some sleep tonight. Donna